We've updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Kno - I Wish I Was Dead (ft. Tonedeff)

from Cold​.​Killed​.​Collected. (2005​-​2010) by Tonedeff

  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $1 USD  or more


  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    Printed exclusively for touring purposes, this is the first time physical editions of Cold.Killed.Collected. have been made available online. 2 CDs!! Only 500 made.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Cold.Killed.Collected. (2005-2010) via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 7 days
    Purchasable with gift card

      $20 USD or more 



[Kno - Hook]

There's a cloud hanging over me
What's in my head
I can't see

[Tonedeff - V1]

It seems I’m captive in a carnival
The main attraction
People stand in line for hours, stoked
They pay to laugh
and see me sabotage my charted goal to escape this trap
while reading transcripts of my horoscopes
Then it fades to black
Repeat the pattern till my heart of gold
is stained and cracked
Decreased in value
if I pawned it whole
would I make it back?
The things that matter seem so hard to hold, so I’ll face the facts
And leave this planet how I found it
And embrace the casket
Feel so damaged, that I can hardly cope in a savage world, where the scars reopen at random
If you don’t wanna choke, put a bandage over your parted throat
I’m man that’s on his own and I can’t get over these obstacles
And it adds a sting that the common folks are this adamant to think god’s a hoax
And I’m outta hope
Though I’m strong I don’t wanna live with the strain
No positive notes, no prospect glowing to give me the strength
I simply revisit the day that misery came
And, I wait for the light at the end of the tunnel, until it hits me
That it was a train

[Kno - V2]

I can feel my blood circulate the whole of my body
Cause there’s holes in my body, like a blow from a shotty
I’m assuming it probably, cause the hospitals got me
I get up off the gurney and I am certainly wobbly
But it doesn’t concern me that I am fervently nauseous
I’m not overly cautious, I just don’t know what caused it
So I’m talking to doctors, asking where is my family
Or who was it that brought me, or who was it that shot me
Cause I’m hurt pretty badly, but my memory’s shoddy
And nobody will help me, so I’m wobbling oddly
To the front of the lobby so maybe someone will spot me
But my face is in pieces maybe they don’t recognize me
Now I’m just realizing, as I open my pocket
That my phone is inside it, so I’m frantically dialing
Trying to call my fiancé, maybe she’s trying to find me
But I hear ringing behind me, and it strikes me as odd
I turn around as she walks up to finish the job

[Tonedeff - Bridge]
I’m wishing for dead.
The world is a weight around my neck. Oh, oh. oh.
I’m wishing for dead.
If today’s like tomorrow, let this end.


from Cold​.​Killed​.​Collected. (2005​-​2010), released June 21, 2011
Written by Tonedeff & Kno // Produced By: Kno for Knolan Ryan Productions (ASCAP)


all rights reserved



Tonedeff New York

Emcee / Producer / Singer / Songwriter / Designer / Director / Insomniac.

contact / help

Contact Tonedeff

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this track or account

Tonedeff recommends:

If you like I Wish I Was Dead (ft. Tonedeff), you may also like: