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She was her and I was him
She was torn, my deeds were thin
So I swore through thick and thin
That she would never feel pain.

And as they merged, they found their way
A love that slumbered in domestic comfort when under the rain
He showed her colors she loved, but adjusted them under the shade
To all it all had seemed right

When she was happy
When she was happy
When she was happy
So was I.

When she was happy
I wasn't happy.
I was unhappy
Cause I'd lied.

So, I don't trust anyone
Cause I don't trust myself.
And I don't try myself
To do it right.
Since I don't trust anyone.
Then they can't let me down.
If they can't let me down.
I'll never cry.

She was her and I was him
I was torn, she'd smile and grin
I was broken, so the sky would spin.
And for once, it seemed right

But she was caught between a fence
She needed colors that she'd only see if she was to blend
And so I buzzed her with domestic comforts and made her pretend
That love was one in the same.

Till she was happy
When she was happy.
When she was happy.
So was I.

Now she's unhappy
I was still happy
Oh but it can't be
Cause I tried

So, I don't trust anyone
Cause I don't trust myself.
And I don't try myself
To do it right.y
Since I don't trust anyone.
Then they can't let me down.
If they can't let me down.
I'll never cry.

I gotta question
How many mirrors am I gonna shatter till I peer at patterns in my self reflection?
stay steering past the intersections, take the clearest paths to get affection
The way these years have all been progressing, have made me fear that my indiscretions
have painted me into this bitter vestige
But I'm here in my messiness, like god is to cleanliness
Yes, and trust earned is the power to destroy -
And I'm hearing the call of the void while I'm nearing the precipice.

I don't wanna lie no more.
And I don't wanna give you up.
So I gotta open my vaults
The horror of exposing my faults.

And I don't want die alone.
But I don't wanna fall in love.
Cause I don't want to fuck this all up
When all of my destruction's caught up.

I don't wanna choose.
I don't wanna lose.
I don't wanna make the call.
Cause what if I'm wrong again?
Cause ain't that how it always ends?

Oh, it's been so long since I've been right
That I can't even bother to try.

Cause I don't trust anyone.
Cause I don't trust anyone.
Cause I don't trust anyone.
Cause I don't trust anyone.

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from Polyoptics (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack), released December 19, 2018
Written, Produced & Performed by: Tonedeff for QN5 Music (ASCAP)

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